i am a 29 yr old meth addict i have been addicted to meth for almost 7 yrs my life has been a total nightmare since i started using meth. i did meth during 2 pregnancies and lost both of them to social services. my parents have my oldest daughter living in ohio,and my second girl lives with my boyfreinds brother and sister in law here in rockford IL. For the past 2 yrs i have become so addicted to meth that it has become a uncontrollable addiction. to the point where i do meth every single day(no joke) i learned how to make it about 6 in a half yrs ago but never really started cooking alot till this past 2 yrs i dont sell it i just make it for personal use. i live sleep and breath meth. it sucks!!! i keep trying to slow down and even stop but i dont know how to explain it , i just cant make myself stop using it seems like the harder i try to stop the less control i have. i have let this drug completely ruin my life in every way possible. the job i have now i am lucky to have cause my boss is a great guy and puts up with alot of shit from me calling off all the time cause i am to busy making dope or coming in late cause i was to high at first to get there on time he doesnt realize thats whats going on he just thinks i have alot of drama going on with family members which is true to. then theres my boyfriend nick we have been together for 8 yrs going on 9yrs and we were so much in love before this drug came along and came between us. i mean we still love one another but we arent in love anymore we spend most of our time apart cause we r always high and like doing different thing when we r high so there's a big space between us that i hate. i have some really sad scary stories i would like to share with u all but i am afraid u all will post blogs of judgment and be cruel to me so i am not sure if i will blog again
lynnroe
